I did talk to Jon about my dreams this week. It made me feel a little better. He reminded me that there are other ways to have a baby. Like in vitro or a surrogate or even adoption. But all come with hefty price tags, legal and emotional issues. Nothing to worry about now. Just have to wait and see how things go.
The dreams haven't been so often now. I also started taking sleeping pills. They seem to be working. Going to take them for a week or 2 then hopefully after I stop them I can get some sleep.