Monday, May 9, 2011

Having trouble sleeping...

I can't seem to go a night without waking up several times from a dream and then not being able to go back to sleep right away.  Usually hours pass before I can sleep again.

I swear my subconscious is fucking with me.  My dreams are always dealing with babies.  Either due to complications something happens half way through the pregnancy or I'm told I never can.  Both are very possible.  I have had miscarriages before and I have been told it would be very difficult to almost impossible to get pregnant but seriously does my brain need to rehash it every night??? 

Its not something I think about much when I am awake but they are some of my worries.  I guess not talking about them is probably part of the problem.  This may also be happening because at the beginning of the year we decided that in July when I see my doctor that we want to talk to her about trying to start a family.  July is much closer now then it was back then so the fears are starting to creep out.

All I know is that I want them to stop...

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